25 May 2011

I Talk Like This 'Cuz I Can Back It Up

Remember when I asked “If you had a theme song, what would it be, and why?”? It was a while ago, but I received so many answers. It was not until yesterday that I realized that mine changes a lot with my mood, but a song that will always be a resounding melody in my head is Beyonce's “Ego.” I use that song a lot in my blogs because it epitomizes everything I believe about myself.

Some women were made but me, myself
I like to think that I was created for a special purpose
You know, what's more special than you? You feel me

I may not be the tallest, sexiest, smartest, sweetest person in the world, but in my mind, I believe I am all of that plus more. In my head, I am a pure genius and I am the ultimate powerhouse. In reality? Ehh. Not so much. I am 5'2 and quite clumsy and ditzy. HOWEVER, when I put on this song, all of my flaws disappear. I walk taller and my hips switch hard enough to cause an earthquake...

When I'm listening to “Ego,” all the second-guessing I do about myself fades a little. This would be my theme song because it is all about woman empowerment and confidence. The first step to being brilliant is knowing that you're brilliant. If you don't see yourself being great, no one else will.

There is nothing wrong with being confident. Like I said, no one will see your amazing fabulosity unless you see it first. This is why I don't see myself as having competition or having that many setbacks. People tell me all of the time, “Phoenix, you're short/too thick/don't have thisthatthisthat...” Who the hell cares? I'm fuckin' fabulous. I have two degrees at the age of 21 and I'm about to start on my Master's. So fuck you and the tiny ass horse you rode in on.
I walk like this 'cause I can back it up
I talk like this 'cause I can back it up
I can back it up, I can back it up
I walk like this 'cause I can back it up

My friend has always told me that I walk “stank” (aka I switch too hard). I've had females tell me that their first impression of me was that I looked conceited and like I thought I was better than everyone else. Although I don't say this, but dammit, in my head I am. I'm not necessarily better than anyone else, but what's wrong with making that a goal? If I shoot high, I'll achieve high. I think confidence is one of the sexiest possessions one can have. That's why I believe that “Ego” is my theme song. It is a feel-good song that makes me not feel guilty for feeling like I'm the shit. Do you think Oprah, Kobe or Kanye lack confidence? I doubt it *insert Kobe finger wag here.* If you don't have confidence, you don't have a foundation for your goals.


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